Too much, not enough, even less, and getting there.
Caffeine tolerance level plummeted since college, now manifests as nervous nausea and unsettled mindset. Possibly learned to associate with due-dates. Exacerbated if coupled with insufficient food intake throughout the day. Need to get out of here.
Calories today involved 2 slices of sprouted wheat bread with salmon cream cheese spread, 4 creamers, two shots of Keurig coffee (10oz total, Gloria, Hazelnut), and about 20 blackberries. Not enough by far, but though of eating makes me guilty and smell of ginger is making me sick. Conflict stopping attempts to eat.
5-6 hours of sleep. Three hours of driving, with about 45 minutes of traffic. Trapped trapped trapped.
Equally spacey and twitchy. Tired, can't sleep on bed (too comfortable, don't deserve it), folding in on the floor is nauseous (fat.).
Feeling like I need to sob.
This is what I have always been afraid of after that time.
