Posted from phone.

Got a new phone today. AT&T wants to get rid of their 2G phones and switch to a 3G network. Casualty of this exchange is the loss of my unlocked, media-playing phone. Now what will I do with all the accessories that came with it? :( Also my old text messages were all gone...but i suppose that's me not smart enough to take the SIM card out as well. This phone is newer & more fanshy, but has inferior photo and mp3 capabilities. Also, no space for my TARDIS.

Looking for work when your self-esteem is shit doesn't work because nothing feels like something you're able to do.

I couldn't talk the whole time because all I could think of were how my teeth hurt and how I almost said something hurtful in attempt to vent.

The gap is wide and sometimes it doesn't connect.

There's really no suitable perpetual audience for this sort of stuff.

It's been a while since I felt crappy like this.
Feeling so doubtful and unsure.
Also needy.
And fat.

Maybe I desperately need some kind of acknowledgement, too.

Stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
In poor living situation.
I hate it so much.


One can only dump this on another so many times before one feels guilty for ruining precious social experiences and fear for being seen as too egocentric.

PS3 Games: 2, PS3 Console: 0

Got my second PS3 game today: Katamari Forever for $16.36! (It's $16.79 in Amazon right now.)

...yet I still have to get a PS3... >_>

Also, I'm not sure whether or not this is going into Timmy's game collection, which would be a problem if I get my own PS3.

Anyway, Katamari Forever ♥


x-posted.

I hate myself for not being able to sound more happy, but it's hard when i feel so subpar despite all efforts to help. And that makes me feel like crap more.

I really hate feeling so desperate and lonely like this.

I prohibited myself to do everything.

The worst kind of guiltily procrastinating turns everything shitty and ruins every activity.